I took my heart to church tonight

Y’all I am blessed to live in the BUCKLE of the BIBLE belt, Tulsa, Oklahoma. I’m not a thumper in fact the opposite. I’m the prodigal Woman! Yes, I grew up IN the church, what a joke. It wasn’t until BABY GIRL was laying in the hospital dying at 2 years old that I needed me a GOD with some skin on HIM! Nothing will bring you to your knees like your dying baby girl.

I never claim to be perfect, never~in fact this is the first time I share this with you…..I’m was like Paul on the road to Damascus~BLIND. I was like Peter~I didn’t know my own heart….but God does. I’m thankful for that!

Some folks like ME are here for a season in your life~I never know how long that season is but I do know this~if I don’t bloom and grow where I’m planted and learn from my stupid mistakes…..I’ll be like the folks walking around the mountain for 40 years. All I have done up until 2007 is taken care of my Alexanderia! I was invisible and you can say what you want to say about that, but I tell you to shut thee up! Your opinion is no longer needed nor required. I look to God and God alone to tell me who I am.

I will tell you a secret about me…….NO ONE CAN BEAT ME UP WORSE THEN I BEAT MYSELF~So I ask for mercy and forgiveness. I wanted to disappear again! It takes all my guts to stay here! I’m a runner! I closed my comments because I can’t take them! So please understand when I tell you I stand before you a BROKEN and MENDING Woman! I am NOT perfect in fact I am a BIG mess and I know it! Here’s the link to my Heart church! Nobody has praise and worship like this place. I take my heart here! I sit, I don’t sing, I am a back row sitter. In fact I HATE CHURCH, BUT I drink from the fountain of PRAISE. God is so cool! Look at my baby girl y’all she’s a walkin’~talkin’ miracle! I know it.