Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; Love is not ill mannered
or selfish or irritable; Love doe not keep a record of wrongs; Love is not happy with evil;
but is happy with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things,
endures all things.
I needed to remind myself of this today thought I would share it with you. The part that got me was “Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” Sometimes the thing you endure is watching a beloved one suffer in pain and there’s nothing you can do. Add on top of that she’s meaner than a snake, I don’t like meanness of any kind, I tend to shut that person off because I’ve had a lifetime of meanness and at this point in my life I can choose who I associate with, but when it’s my baby girl it’s hard to shut her off because she needs me now.
Last night I did my peddling out thing I do when someone is mean and cruel to me I felt myself doing it. I do it to protect my heart because she has direct access to my heart. Nobody loves like I do when I’m full on loving you without my guard up. So when I change the intensity my love because of hurt she feels it. I think sometimes those I love forget I’m a person too. I’m strong but I can only take so much. Then this morning I had that emergency call from her right when I’m working on this. Interesting how that happens.