Art by MichelleMarie
My thoughts
Kiss of rain upon my face~am I dancing yet?
I took my heart to church tonight
Y’all I am blessed to live in the BUCKLE of the BIBLE belt, Tulsa, Oklahoma. I’m not a thumper in fact the opposite. I’m the prodigal Woman! Yes, I grew up IN the church, what a joke. It wasn’t until BABY GIRL was laying in the hospital dying at 2 years old that I needed me a GOD with some skin on HIM! Nothing will bring you to your knees like your dying baby girl.
I never claim to be perfect, never~in fact this is the first time I share this with you…..I’m was like Paul on the road to Damascus~BLIND. I was like Peter~I didn’t know my own heart….but God does. I’m thankful for that!
Some folks like ME are here for a season in your life~I never know how long that season is but I do know this~if I don’t bloom and grow where I’m planted and learn from my stupid mistakes…..I’ll be like the folks walking around the mountain for 40 years. All I have done up until 2007 is taken care of my Alexanderia! I was invisible and you can say what you want to say about that, but I tell you to shut thee up! Your opinion is no longer needed nor required. I look to God and God alone to tell me who I am.
I will tell you a secret about me…….NO ONE CAN BEAT ME UP WORSE THEN I BEAT MYSELF~So I ask for mercy and forgiveness. I wanted to disappear again! It takes all my guts to stay here! I’m a runner! I closed my comments because I can’t take them! So please understand when I tell you I stand before you a BROKEN and MENDING Woman! I am NOT perfect in fact I am a BIG mess and I know it! Here’s the link to my Heart church! Nobody has praise and worship like this place. I take my heart here! I sit, I don’t sing, I am a back row sitter. In fact I HATE CHURCH, BUT I drink from the fountain of PRAISE. God is so cool! Look at my baby girl y’all she’s a walkin’~talkin’ miracle! I know it.
Where my heart signs AND I am speechless!
Let’s jump~Tomorrow we might wake up and regret this…maybe…oh well
Papa can you see me, Papa can you hear me?
Papa what’s your favorite color?
“Papa what’s your favorite color?”
“Micki blue like your eyes, one day a man will get lost in them and Violet like your Mother’s.”
My Pa bought me my first colored stone ring, Peridot my birthstone, I was 13. After that he made it his mission to buy every colored stone for me from Amethyst, Topaz to my favorite Tanzanite. I love color, I love everything about color. I love all colors, I purchase my clothing according to colors and then my closet is color organized. I love that my Pa loved blue, he always wore blue and sometime Purple Violet~I love that so much about my Pa!
Sunshine always makes me smile
Sometimes I dream in flowers
if tomorrow comes…

if tomorrow comes…
and you feel
I didn’t love you
please realize…
I love you with all I have
if I was not there
when you were present
Perhaps that is the day
I feel invisible
if I don’t say
exactly what you
need to hear
I have no words left
could it be
Perhaps I have given them all away
I rest~knowing
I have given all of
my handicapped heart
that has to be enough
It’s all I got
if tomorrow comes
and it is not enough
I still rest~knowing
I have given all of
my handicapped heart








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