Sometimes I wish life was like numbers

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Most people don’t know this about me but I have a technical mind. I love computer science and I went to school for computer science, which led me to graphic design, illustrating and then into journalism and editing. I love to figure out how things work. I am fascinated with numbers and how the grouping together create mathematical  equations that give us such things as the speed of light or how much, psi (pounds per square inch) it takes to drill oil from beneath the earth. I use Algebra almost every day and think how interesting it is when I hear someone say they have never used it a day since they left school.

I wish sometimes life was like numbers, where a + b = c, and there weren’t so many variables.

Today I am writing equations and I thought I would share this fact about myself  that, I’m a geek!

The Voice Down Under~Inspiration from Uncle Gunn

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I’m Free~Inspiration from Uncle Gunn

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Uncle Gunn and Moi

 

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This is Uncle Gunn and Moi. My Uncle Gunn is such an inspiration to me. About 4 years ago he told me, “Micki you need to find out who Micki is, and you don’t need to leave home to do that.” My Uncle Gunn has inspired me for years. He’s a wonderful musician, he writes, plays and produces his own music. There isn’t an instrument he can’t play! He sent me this and I wanted to share it with you because I’ve read it at least 1,000 times and it helped me a lot to let go of a lot of baggage I’ve carried around for years.

Letting Go

To let go doesn’t mean to stop caring

It means I can’t do it for someone else

To let go is not to cut myself off

It’s the realization that I can’t control another

To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences

To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands

To let go is not to try and change or blame another,

I can only change myself

To let go is not to care for, but to care about

To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive

To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,

but to allow others to affect their own outcomes

To let go is not to be protective,

It is to permit another to face reality

To let go is not to deny, but to accept

To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment

To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone, but to try to become what I dream I can be

To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future

To let go is to fear less and love more

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—My dear sweet Uncle Gunn sent this to me 9-23-11

 

I’ll be like a whisper in the wind

 

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I’ll be like a whisper in the wind
you’ll think you hear me
but I’m gone
You’ll dream about me
to awaken only to find
I’m not there
I know this about myself
once I have loved you
nobody loves like I do
I know it
I’m ok with never
loving again
I have decided
I’ll be like a whisper in the wind…

 

Stand up and fight~sit down and Shut up

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Which is it?
You want me to stand up and say something until I do then you tell me to sit down and Shut up!
Makes a fighter like me want to sit this one out.
Driven by my passion for your life I broke my silence and to my surprise tears roll down my face as I struggled to explain myself, to give voice to the pain I hold back because I’ve been fighting so long. I don’t know anything different. When someone threats your life or messes with your delicate balance of health, I stand up and fight whatever come against us. I see that attack as the enemy and I take them out or at least in my mind I do, well I do when it comes to you baby girl, I’d give my life for you.
I’ve fought school boards for equal adequate treatment for you special needs. I’ve fought hospitals, doctors, nurses, teachers, or anyone that challenges your human right to live and be treated rightfully, I fight for you.
But when you’re the one I’m fighting, my hands are tied behind my back. My heart gets in the way. I want to hold you and make things better yet at the same time I want to shake you and say, “Snap out of it, LOOK we aren’t playing this is your life, that boy nearly killed you please, please, stop, don’t go there it’s a trap, T-bag, please not stupid boy anyone but stupid boy.”
OMG, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do is watch you walk in the enemy’s camp without me!

Dew like crystal on my petals~ever gentle~till it’s light

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Dew like crystal
on my petals
ever gentle,
till it’s light
MichelleMarie

Tuesday Morning Java POINTs

 

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Today is Tuesday and at some point today I will forget what day it is and think it’s Monday. My day will be so long that by the end of the day I will think it is actually Thursday. I work on a weekly schedule and my work load is gauged by what day of the week it is so since we were off yesterday I will be all messed up on my days all week. My saving grace each morning is my mocha latte’ and my quiet time. I cherish it and treat it like it is a holy quiet hour. I’ve been doing this since 2000 when I discovered that my day goes smoother if my thoughts are gathered nicely into my journal and put away till the next morning.

OH and baby girl is home from the lake. She went to Branson over the long weekend and I sure am glad she is home. All is back to order in my life. I like it that way. Have a lovely day.

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What happens when the happy girl gets sad?

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All to often
I have come to know
no matter where you go
in life there will be sadness
there will be pain
there will be times
of utter despair
I simply express it and go on
I never get stuck, though I revisit
I have learned nothing gained
in the wallowing, gnashing of teeth
and beating upon oneself
I have learned
to be my own best friend
I have learned
where my joy comes from
I have seen
what a kind word can do
So in my sadness
I offer joy though
none avails me now
but come tomorrow
the sun will shine
the storms will go
and I will say
Thank you God I made it
Me and My best friend Me!