The passing of the Privy~Gpa Art

My Pa was one of 7 children. Each sibiling has a talent, some sang, recited poetry they had written around the campfires in the evening after supper. My Pa sang and recited poetry, so did his Pa,  Gpa Art, this is one I remember fondly! Photo from my Pa’s cabin, one of the two privies on the property! 😀

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When memory keeps me company and moves to smiles or tears
A weather-beaten object looms thru the mist of years
Behind the house a barn it stood, a half a mile or more
And hurried feet a path had made straight to its swinging door
Its architecture was a type of simple classic art
But in the tragedy of life, it played a leading part.
Along the berry bushes reddened in the streaming soil behind!
Twas fun to watch the spiders build themselves a bower
Delightful when my desire was to while away a lonely hour
What need to scrape the gooseflesh with a dilapidated cob
When we were fortunate enough to have a
Sears Roebuck Catalog!
That from a rusty nail was uspended by a string
Cause my father was a frugal man and wasted not a thing.
And once a swarm of hornets bold had built their castle there
And stung my unsuspecting Aunt I dare not tell you where
Then father took a flaming pole!! That was a glorious day
He darn near burned the old shack down but the hornets left to stay
And oft the hurried traveler drove slow and heaved a sigh
To see the modest hired girl slip out with glances shy
Now we had our posy garden that women loved so well
I liked it too but better still I loved the stronger smell.
That filled the summers evenings with such a home like cheer
And told the night oer taken tramp that human life was near
And in the hot mid-summer time there’d be a swarm of flies
That flitted to and from the house where Ma was baking pies.
Now when Grampa had to go out back to make his morning call
We bundled up the deal old man with muffler and a shawl
I knew the hole on which he sat Twas puddled all around
And once I dared to sit!!! It was all too large I found
My loins were all too little and I jacked-knifed there to stay
The had to come and pull me out or I’d have passed away
Then father said ambition is the thing that boys should shun
And I should use the chilluns hole til childhood days are done
But still I marvel at the craft that cut those holes so true
The baby hole and slender hold that fitted sister Sue
That old familiar landmark I’ve tramped around a bit
But in the lap of luxury my lot has been to sit
Yet ere I die I’ll eat the fruit of trees I robbed of yore
Then seek the shanty where my name is carved upon the door
I bet the old familiar smell will soothe my jaded soul
I’m now a man but none the less
I’ll try the chilluns hole!

I keep going back

Pa
I keep going back
to the place
I last kissed your cheek
held your hand

I keep going back
to the spot
where we laid you
to rest

I keep going back
trying to physically
find some evidence
of your existence

I keep going back
in my mind
all the smiles, laughter, tears
trying to find you Pa

I realized today
I don’t have to keep going back
because you’re right here
inside my heart

And it’s ok cause
you are here with
me in my memories

Did you know then?

Pa

Struck by this photo of you
Before life had taken you to places you had yet to discover
Did you know then
I’d be looking at this photo and you would be gone?

I see a young man of promise
sure of himself with the future ahead.
Did you know then
that one day you would forget my name?

I am captured by your stance
so confident and full of presence
Did you know then
I would miss you so deeply?

I realized that I was not even on your mind
I had not been born yet when it was taken
Did you know then
I would search for pieces of you still?

I keeping looking at the man you were
wondering what you were thinking then
Did you know then
you would die a man of mystery?

I search your face for some evidence
of who you were then
Did you know then
you would leave us all with questioning who you were?

As I study each line and commit it to memory
I’m thankful for this photo
Did you know then
I would carry this image in my mind of the last time I saw you?

I didn’t know it but someone did
that I needed to replace those last memories
Did you know then
you would touch us all so that we can touch each other?

Tell me Pa did you know?

Remembering U like it was Yesterday. . .

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Remembering U like it was Yesterday…We laughed

 

Remembering U like it was Yesterday…We danced

 

Remembering U like it was Yesterday…I held your hand

 

Remembering U like it was Yesterday…I watched you sleep

 

Remembering U like it was Yesterday…

What is normal?

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I write to you out of lack today.
I come to you with nothing to say
I seem to come to this place
Thoughts I’d like to erase
Memories without a trace
Of dignity left inside me
And I wonder will I forever
be always seeking
never coming to the full
knowledge of anything
significant…
If I do
will I find
what lies behind
The hope that drives
me on
meaninglessness….
Will I have spent
all this time seeking
something that is
unattainable
grasping at ghosts…
Standing against
the very wind
that threatens
the very life
I cling to…
Realizing
grasping and clinging
is more desperation
to scoop up what’s
left of my dignity
Because I know
this only
perpetuates more
feverish dancing about
on the threshing floor
perhaps to glean
one stalk, one twig
of normalcy
What is normal?

Your love is like scripture to me

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How can I stop worrying?

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Just this week diagnosed with another disease and you want me not to worry?
So I said to myself, “Michelle she’s 20, with her boy friend and his parents trust God.”
Now I’m walking the dog, talked to my PiNk friend for 2 hours about faith and living PINK.
I know I need to LIVE my own life but seriously I don’t have one outside of Mom!
Well God you are going to have to show me what living is because I know nothing else!

Happy Friday~Sweet Friends

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I am found

 

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Golden Sun and Clouds of Blue
Remind me of my Love for You
I once was broken, now I am whole
I once was blind, but not I see
I once lost, but now I am found
Your Love it blankets me all around
I am free~
MichelleMarie