You and Me against the world Baby Girl. It’s always been just you and me fighting together. I love that you tried to do this by yourself to be strong and fight but sometimes we have to give in and let people take care of us. I’m sorry that all you’ve ever known is hospitals and doctors. I’m sorry that you didn’t live a normal life and childhood. I sit here going through all my phone photos, many through the years of you right here at this very hospital. Isn’t it odd that our memories are like this? As a mother you want to protect your child, keep them from harm but there were times I feel I failed at protecting you from the attack on your body. I’m thankful for doctors and nurses. When I noticed that you had on the same scrubs that everyone at the hospital wore, I realized something~it has all been worth it, the fight, the pain, all of it to see you become a nurse . The best part for me was when you started to fall asleep and you reached your hand out for me to take it, just like you did when you were little and you said, “Mommy I don’t want to ever leave you.” You and Me against the World Baby Girl. That’s what it’s about for me!
Art box by Alexanderia~Art design by MichelleMarie
All my life I wanted to be called Mom, I looked down at you and said, Hi it’s Mommy…
I remember you smiled at me, I like to think you did, it was at that moment I realized I had nothing to give you…so I gave you my heart. For the first time in my life I was giving complete access to my heart to someone and it scared me, made me want to be a better person. Nobody makes me laugh like you do, Nobody makes me cry like you do, Nobody makes me crazy like you do. You are my world Baby Girl. I wouldn’t have missed being your Mom for nothing! It’s the best thing I’ve ever done!
Oh I hope you dance, dance, dance!
Babygirl blessed me with a visit yesterday, she was taking a nap and I was thinking how long she has been my little buddy at work. My co-workers walk by and say, “Hi Alex, How are you feeling? How is work?” They have known her since she was 3 and now she’s 20, going to be the big 21, June 29th. Yay!
Babygirl is sick again, she has Pyelonephritis, Kidney Infection.
Last year, I had just started blogging and shared this with you as she was hospitalized. She should be in the hospital her doctor said but babygirl is working now and training on a new computer system so she wanted to work today. I’m believing she is going to make it through the day and I’m putting all my faith in God that He gives her the strength to make it today. When I walked out the door this morning this lovely Clematis saying~Hello~I thought how this vine is the Come Back Vine, like my KID, babygirl is the Come Back Kid. I’m so proud of her! The momma in me wants to give in and make her stay home or go to the hospital but she wants to fight! OMG that fills me with such faith today! Can somebody give God some glory today! My babygirl is a walking, talking miracle. WooHoo!