I rarely get to take vacation this is the first time I’ve had 11 days away from my job! I still got up to make sure BB got her lunch packed and got off ok! She drove Jerry the Jeep today because he’s big and tough!
An un-insuranced driver was speeding and BB slowed down because the roads were wet and the cars were stopping in front of her she said she heard breaks squealing so she turned Jerry into the ditch. The guy slammed into Jerry’s left rear quarter panel! His car was smashed like an accordion!
This happened right in front of a highway patrolman! He told me he jumped the curb to get to Alex because the guy skidded for 90ft before slammed into Jerry! He said thank God your daughter turned the Jeep into the ditch because he was going so fast she would have slammed into the car in front of her and there about 8 in front of that!
I’m waiting for X-rays and CT scan to make sure BB is ok!
I was thinking how sudden things can change in life!! One minute you’re drinking your favorite coffee and the next you are here!
I’m thankful I’m off work today!

Becoming okay with your being upset was the hardest thing for me and sitting in the fact that I knew I upset you when I didn’t deliver like I said I would, like I hoped I could nearly kills me.

I simply didn’t have it in me to look pretty and be ON.
You see I was already ON…

I live my life ON and your visit came at a time when I literally had nothing left because I’ve been running at this unbelievable pace for 2 years trying to fill a pair of size 14 shoes I didn’t know were retired when their owner did!

Sitting in this moment and allowing it to BE what it is and not bombarding you with I’m sorry’s, because I already apologized for disappointing you, is the hardest thing to do for the fixer in me.
I simply must stop this need to please it’s literally killing me and I know it!

Becoming okay with you being upset and sitting in the fact that I knew I disappointed you when I didn’t deliver is the hardest thing for me.